Vacillating between equanimity and anxiety
The title says it all. Some moments I'm at peace, and some moments I'm not. I can flip pretty quickly between certainty and doubt.
This is a good thing. If I stayed in equanimity all the time, I'd never be motivated to change anything. Why change the world when you're at peace with it, when you're loving what is constantly? If I stayed in certainty I'd get stuck in dogma sooner or later.
Yet, perpetual anxiety isn't a productive state either. It can be completely paralyzing. The trick I suppose is finding a way to have equanimity about the anxiety, and anxiety about the equanimity.
Mike Lewinski
Denver, Colorado
June 3, 2010
